This is the third argument you’ve had with someone and once again, your glaring, ugly, terrible flaws come to the forefront. You’re working on your term paper and you cannot help but notice how much you are not focussing on your work and how the paper is not nearly as good as your classmates. You are trying your best to be a good child to your parents and somehow you can only see how you are not coming through at times you feel they need you the most.
Somehow, your flaws no matter how hard you fight them, always seem to win. Somehow, no matter what you do, you always end up suffering because of them.
The sad truth is, as a human, by and large, you will be made of flaws. It’s the thing that makes you different. And I know you think that having so many flaws means that you are less or inadequate in the world, but the truth is, you are not. You are a broken but beautiful thing. We all are in some way or the other, no matter our facade, or our smiles or our happy faces, we are all dealing with an extremely difficult situation on the inside. It’s why mental health has become so important these days, because we live in a world that forces perfection on beings that will never ever be perfect. So here it is, my dear, here is how you will accept yourself.
You will accept yourself by allowing yourself to breathe in the moments you feel like you are falling apart. You will accept yourself by not beating yourself up when you do something wrong, instead look to what you can do to fix it. You will accept yourself by feeding yourself self love when rejection has struck you the hardest. You will accept yourself most of all on the nights when you feel like you are drowning, and drag yourself out once again, save yourself from sinking once again. You will accept yourself on the days you do not want to get out of bed but do anyway.
There will be moments in your life where you are perfectly happy with who you are as a human being. We all have them. This is why it is important to imprint those memories and recreate and repeat them as much as possible. On the days when the world is most overwhelming, when your flaws feel extreme, when you feel your existence is pointless, this is when you accept yourself most of all. Accept who you are. A thing of both joy and beauty. Accept yourself for the smiles you bring to the people you love because believe me, you have made them smile more often than you know. Accept yourself for the person who makes you the last thought they think of before they sleep. You have affected others more positively than you can ever fathom. You have touched more lives than you know. And that far outweighs any flaw you have, any flaw you will ever know.
By : Nikita Gill